In many ways we’ve just been waiting until we see Cec this week to deal with system issues. Something is different, and I am fairly concerned. I haven’t heard from L.J. since the birthday on the 13th, although tonight I was talking with a friend and I thought I sensed her just a tad closer from laughing at something she thought was funny. But it isn’t the same at all. L.J. was so very far away still. This is utterly unlike her in every way; she just always is very close to the front and nearby, and she isn’t right now. I miss her.