Well this seems rather stupid to write down, but at the same time, it has its own importance right now. I think it is good to write it down and make it a statement and acknowledge it. Of course as I am about to do that, there are others saying it isn’t true and making this a bigger thing and reality than it truly is. Sigh. So I don’t know. I do know that tonight I watched a movie on t.v. and one that I’m reasonably sure I’ve seen before, but it’s been a long time. At any rate, out of the blue, while watching it, the thought came tumbling through my mind that I am/we are doing just about anything, including absolutely nothing and just whatever will mind-numb or just spacing out, etc., along with whatever else, to distract and avoid thinking and feeling or dealing with stuff right now.
So this really has to change because it isn’t productive, and right now it isn’t helpful because it is excessive and it is to avoid strong feelings or thoughts or inner communication. Somehow these activities minimize what I hear and know and things go on without changing.