Earlier this evening we weren’t doing very well.  I suppose I should clarify that it was around 11:00 P.M. that we weren’t doing well at all.  Earlier tonight before group we experienced a deep sadness for unknown reasons.  Tears close to the surface and stuff for L.J.  She did well in taking care of herself and I’m proud of her.  Anyway, stuff is going on deeper inside and there apparently is a great deal of sadness along with it.  I don’t know what it is– other than it probably relates to the fact that it is October after all and a lot of that stuff is being buried this month and this year… again.

We stopped at the grocery store on the way home tonight after group to pick up one thing.  After constant pleading by others inside, despite how tired I was, they wanted donuts, except others were complaining about how the grocery store donuts just never taste as good as the one donut shop does or Krispy Kremes.  So they were quite loud and insistent about how close we were tonight and we went home after group earlier than usual and so we should get a Krispy Kreme donut.  I’m like we don’t have the extra money for this right now, but I finally relent to go drive out of my way for this Krispy Kreme donut.  Well we get there and they had closed– and so it seems that’s become the typical thing for the few area Krispy Kreme places now that the novelty has worn off.  They used to be 24 hours or very late at night.  The first one in this area showed up a number of years ago– hmm, 10 maybe, not sure.  Anyway, they tried getting us to drive to the one other “okay” donut place that last we knew over a year ago was still open late at night.  That meant driving past our house (again) and I just wouldn’t do it.  I reminded them of the french toast and the yummy Schwann’s pancakes we got from the mother that we could eat instead.  That seemed to satisfy them as long as they knew I’d get them a Krispy Kreme donut after we’re paid again.

It did help that while on the freeway right before we got to Krispy Kreme’s, that my brake warning light and battery warning light both appeared suddenly.  So frankly I didn’t want to drive any more than I absolutely had to.  This is on top of the other chug, chug, jerk, clunk, whatever weird problem that’s been going on randomly yet consistently and more frequently for a little while now.

So none of this is why I came to write here at all.  It’s about this dream that I just woke up with.  It is weird and interesting.  So I’ll be writing it in the next entry.