we’re having a really hard time inside and it is leaking outside quite a bit. october is really hard for us. we’ve been trying really hard to hold things together and be okay, but we’re not. we’ve been trying to get our apartment clean and not just the basics. we’ve been trying to clean out our boxes of clutter and paperwork and whatever else. and it has been very overwhelming even though we keep taking steps on it.
we could write more about it but just don’t have the energy. we haven’t been sleeping well lately. our sleep schedule is so messed up. we’re sleeping in the day and awake all through the night. we haven’t gone to bed yet. we did fall asleep for 2 hours (from around 11pm-1am) but have been awake since.
the pain inside, the sadness, the ache of emotional hurt that is always there somewhere. it’s such a heaviness that stays with us always. we are sad.
we want to keep writing, but we can’t. we keep trying to be ok, but we’re not really.
so much more to write or say but it keeps getting erased. just so sad. and trying to be ok, but we’re not.
just not doing good and trying to hold on.
us, julies, all
we hear you. sorry things are so hard. remember to be gentle on yourselves…
Sorry to hear things are so difficult. I hope you are giving yourself credit for doing what you can. Take care. A
We relate to your post so much. Feeling the same. Here with you if it helps. Try to keep safe and hold on.