The Sleeper Key

So I think we’re going to dare to say something for as long as we can say it and get away with it.

We’ve come here a number of times to write, but each time, an overwhelming exhaustion, fatigue, and sleepiness will prevail and push us towards departing from having taken a step towards writing and often fairly quickly afterwards, we’ll end up having to leave the computer to go lay down.  As such, the writing doesn’t happen, and a siege of sadness and sleepiness will have conquered us for an unknown amount of time, during which time we attempt to recover and try our attempts again at writing and telling and expressing ourselves.  This has been going on extensively lately, but it is also a constant thing we deal with to some kind of varying degree.

So it occurred to a few of us as we were thinking and discussing it, that Sleeper may be involved in our difficulties with writing lately, since the sleepiness and exhaustion has been full force lately.  It also seems to accompany an emotional exhaustion as well.  I really prefer not to blame Sleeper 100%, particularly since I’m not entirely sure of all the dynamics.  I just recognize these familiar dynamics as they take place in our attempts to write and in other areas of life.  Accompanying this sudden onslaught of awareness, we had this surge of “we will overcome this” and so we’re here writing for as long as we can muster our strength and “telling” about Sleeper.

Sleeper is one of the ones we refer to as The Functions or The Keys or The Function Keys.  I guess we haven’t fully determined an agreed upon reference name.  But we know what group Sleeper belongs to, and it is a group that is very high on the hierarchy in our system.  We barely know about this group, but we’re becoming more and more aware of them lately as pieces of information have been falling down somehow or coming from somewhere.  They are a group that has no known color association, which is very odd and highly alarming in a lot of ways to us.  We think there is a possibility that they do have color associations, but we are just not privy to such classified information since we’re such “pee-ons” inside.  It could also be that they have a clear or colorless or some other special color association that we just aren’t able to see or sense or something.  It’s just something that is blocked from our knowledge and awareness.  At least for now.

So we’re taking the risk of writing all of this and putting it out there, not knowing the repercussions of it.  At the same time, I feel like in some kind of way we’re being allowed for whatever reason to write this information.  Odd in so many ways, but perhaps it is a silent stepping away of control and steps forward for them to allow it.  It is hard to believe that we may have conquered them for this short time to be able to write about any of them like this.  So it is much easier to believe that for whatever reason, they are allowing it for this moment in time.  Although someone just said it may just feed their ego strength and power that they have inside.   I don’t know.  I’d like to think that something is shifting and changing, even if ever so slight.  After all, some information about them came through in our handwritten journal a few months ago or less.  I can’t recall, but if I looked, I’d know the date where suddenly names and some basic information was revealed.  For the longest time, we’ve basically only known about Blocker and Eraser.  A few others sort of on the list, but not really.  Destroyer and DestroyHer/Destroyher are also on this list.

So of course now I’m getting a tad sleepy.  Not nearly to the same intensity and degree as usual, but it is there.  I guess we’ll take a break and try to return later with writing about some other things.

Julie/s