just to reassure you, i have had an online journal for 7 years now. No one has ever found it. i used to in the early years worry about this but it just doesnt happen. so dont worry about that, the important thing is you are writing and that will start to heal yous.

love,

melissa

There is nothing wrong about being late. It may be inconvenient but as human beings we just ARE late sometimes. We can’t be perfect. God didn’t make us that way. Being late now and then is just one of the facts of life we must live with. It does not make us bad.

You have a right to talk about your life and your feelings. Anyone who tells you differently isn’t interested in what is good for you, only what is good for them. Don’t believe them. They are trying to protect the secret at all cost and you are disposable to them.

To heal you’re going to need to get those things out of the darkness so you can see them for what they really are and get free from them.

Hang in there. The road to healing is hard but it is worth every step. I used to be saddled with all of these feelings your feeling but through a lot of hard work, I am finally free of all of that crap! I actually even enjoy the holidays.

If they have a lot of web contact and they search the net for blogs then one might worry but if not it seems unlikely that they will stumble on your blog.

This phrase here “file that proves badness” …. I believe I have that file folder. As a matter of fact its a cabinet with a good 16 draws and is able to expand at a moments notice to have more papers and notes stuffed in it. What a horrible feeling it is when a file comes popping out to remind me of my lack of worth and badness. Awful feeling.

Austin