Just a brief note to say that we’re still around. I didn’t realize a week had gone by since we last wrote. Goodness. We have a meme that we’ve been working on– it’s about half done. It took awhile to think and decide on our answers to it. So we’ll finish that and maybe post a few other things as well.
We’re hanging in there… been dealing with a lot of depression and struggles, with some occasional moments of things getting done and being ‘okay’ per say. Our new apt. is still not ready, but it should be sometime this month. We will call again next week, even though the apt. mgr. said that she’d call us when it was ready. I don’t want to bug her, but I do need to find out something that I’ll just wait a bit for before bugging her. I just never imagined it taking as long as it is taking. My prediction is the 13th we’ll sign the lease– only because of how things worked out here at this apt. and how it was connected with my beloved dog, Penny. When I moved into this apt., it was also delayed, and when I did move in, I signed the lease on November 13, 2006. It was the anniversary date of Penny passing away. I just thought it was incredibly interesting.
Sometimes I feel so strongly that Penny and I had a very special spiritual connection of some kind. I can’t wait to see her again, along with my other beloved pets, someday. I miss her so much… time has eased some with the loss of my other pets over the years, but losing Penny just hit us deeply it seems. We thought she’d be with us for so many years, but she got ill with terminal cancer. I know the losses of our other pets also hit us deeply because they were pets we had for years, but I guess we just don’t remember how long we deeply missed them after they were gone. Something still feels a tad different with Penny.
Anyway, I don’t know if my apt will be ready on Feb. 13th… I could be completely wrong, but that’s where I’m at for the moment. It’s less of an intuition as just something I’m making sense of.
Mostly just trying to do what we can as we can and trying very hard to patient with ourselves. We’ve been going through days of struggles to get anything accomplished and then we’ll have a small break ever so brief and then back to the struggle. I just heard back to the “push and pull.” Interesting as that is a theme in our system about so many things.
Depression sucks. Other stuff we just don’t want to get into right now sucks too. I guess that would be avoidance of issues we don’t even want to say aloud, because just thinking in general about them is enough to emotionally drain us almost to empty. So another time for that. We really need to focus on getting some physical order around us taken care of. We’ve been living in an obstacle course in our apt and we’re so tired of it. The kitchen and dining are clean though now… just the rest of the house to get to.
Julie/s