Multiple Reflections

How can you
hate me with all your glory
and love me with all your fright
and still hurt me with such demise
as to love me in others eyes.

How can you
find me in her
and take me as her
while hating me when you see her
because I am not her.

How can you
touch me as her
fuck me just because
you are there
and I’m here for you
because that’s what I do.

A child.

How can you
say you believe
the multiplicity but deny
your abuse, for it was love
in your eyes
and an accident if we
ever spoke of it to you.

How can you laugh
at our pain and
our memories of abuse
with your threats
and special ways
to let us know
you will do it.

How can you
never say
you abused me
you hurt me
you did it
and still live with yourself.

How can you
be my father
when I don’t want one
don’t know what one is
and yet want one
because that is what people do.

How can you…