We had another dream theme where it was evil versus good and it involved S-tan and Jesus and using Jesus and G-d to fight S-tan and evil d-mons and stuff. This is one of our typical dream themes, but it doesn’t happen all the time, and so we wanted to document that we had another one of these types of dreams.
It involved children, adults, many types of animals, inanimate objects, water, house or building levels, trickery, tongues and colors and types of teeth, and a little bit of magick, as well as pills of some kind. For the most part the evil was winning the fight, but at the very end, we discovered that under certain conditions we could take a pill after something happened and reverse the effects of the evil and if we did it quietly and carefully we could get enough good ones converted back to good and really use the power of all of us to fight and win, with G-d and Jesus’s help of course. We had to do it very quietly and carefully and pretend to be “evil” and “converted to evil” but really deep down we are good and fighting and trying to win the battle and not let them win completely.
We also remember that Jesus showed up in the dream unexpectedly–we can remember seeing him to some degree… his clothing and a little bit of his face, but mostly just remember the knowledge that he appeared. We remember that it was a surprise and big thing and much needed in the dream, but we can’t remember the situation before, during, or after he appeared. We’re afraid it was a trick, but pretty sure that this time it wasn’t a trick Jesus but the real Jesus.
We woke up before any real resolution one way or the other, but at least we woke up where hope was returning in the dream after we discovered that under certain conditions if we took these pills, that we could erase the bad and evil and return to good and at the same time, hide the good and pretend to be evil around the evil people while trying to spread the good and win the battle.
Us and Julies
There are some of us who do not understand the need to be around people. There are some of us who do not understand the concept and feeling of loneliness. We feel that we are content being by ourselves. Alone. Safe. Noone in the external world around us. There is such a safety, serenity, peace, and sanctity about it all.
It seems like very few of us in this system have any real need for people. But at the same time, we know of experiences others inside have had that have taught us the importance of having people in our lives, and the gifts of being around safe people and people who bring us joy, etc.
Even still, much of the time when we hear friends speak of being lonely, there are many of us who try very hard to connect with that feeling. We know it exists inside for some, but it is either with only a small minority within or something we are disconnected from most of the time. We crave to be alone far more than we ever crave to be around people. There is far less anxiety when we are alone versus being around people. There’s something that is hard to put into words about how different and better or something it feels to be alone, but perhaps it is because it allows us to exist without interruptions to be in our own world and less connected to the outer world that this body lives in.
Sometimes we feel odd and out of place when we hear some of our friends share about their feelings of loneliness and needing to be around people. It is so hard for us to understand– each time we hear it, we look deep inside to connect to that feeling, for we know it is there and was there at one time. But it is like a candle barely lit that constantly flickers and barely survives. It is as though for many of us that the candles have already burnt out long ago for this need and the need to be alone and safe and something we can’t put into words far exceeds any loneliness feelings or needs to be around others.
At the same time, it is also a warning sign for us. For when melie becomes greatly upset and is strongly needing to run away and become a hermit of sorts, and others inside agree with her, then we know our system is tumbling downwards quickly and is in serious trouble.
We’re not sure why we suddenly decided to journal about this topic. It’s just something we’ve been thinking of from time to time and we were around to write about it. So there it is.
Us and Others
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