http://www.multiplereflections.org/journal Tue, 12 Aug 2008 20:13:49 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en earlier today we discovered a tremor with our right thumb and possibly the beginnings of a tremor with a few of our right fingers if they are placed in a certain position.  the thumb though is pretty much a guarantee though in a certain position. we noticed while holding our ... http://www.multiplereflections.org/journal/2008/08/11/tremors-focusing-and-leaving-oh-my-todays-thoughts/ we have these spiritual battle dreams a lot. we used to have them much more often and much more scarier and different. i guess we're getting stronger or just used to them more and more. i think some of it is that we're less afraid than we ... http://www.multiplereflections.org/journal/2008/08/11/dream-with-huge-spiritual-battle/ unedited writings from someone inside, their way of speaking and telling and communicating --the ones inside who speak and write like this often do not use any punctuation, so it is missing --an edited version will be added later if i could i would tell it again if only to show you can do it again again the night ... http://www.multiplereflections.org/journal/2008/08/01/if-i-could-again/ That's really it-- just trying to keep it together.  Outside we can look fine but inside when the inside anxiety and feelings spike, I get the real idea of how hard things are for us and how much anxiety, overwhelmedness, etc. is going on.  It makes it hard to breathe ... http://www.multiplereflections.org/journal/2008/07/28/trying-to-keep-it-together/ So we had therapy today and we told Cec about the creation of Dragon and his memory that we've known about for years, but for some reason, it has surfaced quite a bit these last few months.  Actually that "some reason" has to do with sexual triggers and desires from ... http://www.multiplereflections.org/journal/2008/07/23/before-dipping-the-toes/ So we can't seem to fucking journal these days.  I'm still not entirely sure why.  Sometimes we come to the computer and try to write, but then a sudden and intense wave of emotional and physical exhaustion overwhelms us and we back away with silence. We thought about writing a list ... http://www.multiplereflections.org/journal/2008/07/10/sluggish-writings-turned-to-love/ Uggh, it is hard to believe how much time keeps passing in between our journal entries lately.  It doesn't seem like that much time has passed, even though I'm aware that some time has passed.  It's just, it doesn't seem like 2 or 3 weeks or whatever it keeps being ... http://www.multiplereflections.org/journal/2008/07/02/were-around/