In many ways we’ve just been waiting until we see Cec this week to deal with system issues. Something is different, and I am fairly concerned. I haven’t heard from L.J. since the birthday on the 13th, although tonight I was talking with a friend and I thought I sensed her just a tad closer from laughing at something she thought was funny. But it isn’t the same at all. L.J. was so very far away still. This is utterly unlike her in every way; she just always is very close to the front and nearby, and she isn’t right now. I miss her.
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So we’re alive. Of course we would be, right? Someone inside sarcastically says yah, “Oh it’s “Julie”, she’ll be fine.” And so therein some sort of sadness and ?resentment? lies, and yet, whose fault is that? Mine. Ours. The mask we raise for our sanity and for everyone else’s protection against us. Nobody wants to see us crazy and screwed up royally. Yah says someone- “Save that for therapy.” And someone else adds, “The reason therapists get rid of us, tired of us…” Just as soon as I heard that, then it was taken from me, and I could only write the gist of the faint voice I heard.
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